I need a massage.. on my head

Today Adrian and I celebrate our 7th Month Anniversary. We've been through thick and thin together and we're still holding on, thank God for that. Counting each day as a blessing and hoping for more anniversaries for us in the future.

School work load has been crazy recently. Assignments, presentations and speeches lined up one after another I hardly have time to breathe! This whole semester is all about meeting deadlines and more deadlines.

I just,

- Fnished two speeches for Public Speaking class. Did a "welcome speech" and an "acceptance speech". Had a whole impromptu drama thing on for the welcome speech because YingHan did her welcome speech for a wedding dinner using my name as the bride and another classmate (Edward) as the groom. Coincidently, Edward prepared his speech for his OWN wedding; then he changed the bride's name to match YingHan's speech. When it was my turn, I prepared a speech on MY SON's 21st birthday so I purposely changed my husband's name to Edward's. Later, Stephen (another classmate) did an impromptu speech because he didn't prepare and we suggested that he speak on his parent's wedding anniversary, which will be Edward and mine wedding anniversary. It all went well. lol.

For the "acceptance speech", well, wanting to be different, I did an acceptance speech for the Worst Dressed Award. Wanted to dress for the ocassion but I find it rather too difficult. Gave up trying. Heh!

- Submitted a 3500 words report on Blog: A Popular Culture for my Popular Culture subject final project. Also, I did a presentation just last week.

-For Pop Culture, I also did 2 movie reviews - Forrest Gump based on subculture and counterculture, and Fight Club based on consumerism and globalization.

- Wrote a book review on "The Five People You Meet in Heaven", by Mitch Albom for my Written Genre class.

Now I have,

- A group final project for Advertising, due 4th April.
- Final project for Integrated Marketing Communication. 2500 words report and powerpoint presentation due 4th April.
- Assignments for Written Genre on references.
- Final Speech for Public Speaking Class, on 4th April.
- Final examination starts 10th April.

I have 3 damn final and major assignments and projects due on the same day! 4th APRIL 2006.. Sigh!

For my next semester, I'll be taking

1) Mass Media Communication
2) Introduction to Journalism (which means more writing and more assignment!)
3) Introduction to Public Relation
4) Visual Communication
5) Design & Layout / Desktop Publishing

I soooo need a break! I want to go for a trip...

She says..

I'm not going to write this entry in a proper paragraph and ignore the occasional grammatical error..


She says I'm in a University doing my degree because she feels that it is necessary for her to do so in order to avoid complains from me in the future...

She says she doesn't mind what degree I'm pursuing so long I have one...

She says I'm the smartest among the lot and therefore she has high hopes and expectations from me..

"If she is expecting so much of me, why aren't I given the best choice of university or education? And so why am I not offered a chance to study overseas?"

She says her responsibility and duty is to bring money home and thus she doesn't have too much time for the family..

She says therefore I shall be the one responsible for the duties she were to perform..

"Can I too say that my responsibility and duty is to concentrate on my studies and bring her good results and thus I can't take too much time for the family too?"

She says her role now is the breadwinner (only?)..

"But in all of her expectations, I am a student, a daughter and a sister."

She says I am to suceed her business because my character as a outgoing person is the most suitable among other choices...

She says I will lead a smooth life and save a whole lot of time searching for jobs if I just do what she has prepared for me...

She says I do not have a choice because this is what is best for me...

She says character can be built..

"Why don't you build a character of another choice for your successor then?"

"What is best for me when I am not the one deciding?

"What is best for me when I am being forced to do it?"

"What is best for me when I can't do what I want to do?"

She says I am lucky to have a life as good as I have now..

"What life is good when your life is planned and prepared by others?"

"What life is good when your presence is just a knight on someone's game of chess?"

She says I do not spend enough time at home..

"Not enough time at home, when I am home everyday after school, for dinner and the rest?"

She says I do not take care of the family..

"I performed my duty as a student in her expectations to go school everyday and getting good grades. I even make it as the President of my faculty's association."

"I performed my duty as a daughter in her expectations to do household chores and staying at home everyday."

"I performed my duty as a sister in her expectations in fetching my youngest sister back from school everyday and guide her through her homework at home."

"I performed my extra duty out of her expectations by being misunderstood as my youngest sister's (Anna) mother because her friends see me the most."

"I performed my extra duty out of her expectations by being the one who signed Anna's examination papers, homework checklist and reply slip for parents teachers association meeting."

She says I go out too often..

"Weekdays I go to school, fetch Anna home and stayed home."

"Saturday I go out with Adrian for half a day and have dinner at home."

"Sunday I go to church in the morning with Adrian, lunch and then go home for dinner."

She says 12 o'clock is late..

"But my best friend's 21st birthday party started at 10."

She says I should be home whenever she's out in case of any emergency..

"But she's out every single day.. So when is my chance to have a time of my own?"

She says I should stay home and eat Maggi Mee instead of going out for dinner with Adrian when she's eating out at a Japanese Restaurant.

"I can't find any plausible reason to accept that."

She says I make up excuses when I say I'm buying a toohbrush after dinner when she called to ask my whereabout...

She says, why can't I buy the toothbrush yesterday (Saturday) when I head out to the photo shop?

"I told her because it started drizzling and getting heavier and she particularly asked where was I going and when am I coming back. So I went back after I'm done at the photo shop."

She says, I don't care if it's raining heavily or whatever..

"I was left totally speechless."

Adrian was worried about me because I used up 2 packs of tissue crying while on the phone with him.

He told me to be strong.

"I said if I wasn't strong, I'd be crazy long ago.."

Indeed.

Crazy...

Because she is my mother.